LNT - LETS CATCH UP

As I felt the need to post some of my recent thoughts, I found myself reading through my old post here and felt like a little catch up session is needed. As I am no longer the same person I was when I started and the world is also not what it was when I started.

A lot has happen since 2019 and damn did no one saw anything coming for me and also for the world. We have been in a pandemic for a year now, Yes a year. It's 2021, yes 2021, sounds crazy even typing it, as it sound like some futuristic year but than every thing is actually not normal. We can't just hug people, sitting with strangers in crowed place is a long lost way of being and being out and about is pretty not happening, nations been in lockdown for some time like an on and off, racheal and ross relationship hehe and seems like it gonna be like this for quite some time now.

The funniest thing is our travel plan than me, mom and dad had made which has defo not happen and it seems won't for some time but let hope for the best and that things will get better soon.

Apart from that, I too have grown and become wiser, sainer ahahh and happier. I had lots of time this pass few years on growing and understanding myself which I am very grateful of and one of my biggest and bestest achievement is to have found closure with myself, my pass, my values and my life. I am no longer the lost girl I wrote I was. After a lot and lot of inner quest and searching, I've seem to have gotten a good understanding of who I was, who I am and who I want to become. I still have my moments the post before this can very much explain my having my lost moment again but in total honesty. I am in a very good place emotionally, mentally, spiritually.

When I begin this journey in 2018 first and than started writing here in 2019. I wasn't very open but with one insta post after another. Private is defo not what I've been about my journey. From writing about my mental health issues, my seizure claps in 2018 which lead me to spirituality, caste issue and traumas to healing and coming full circle with my past. I've been very vocal. Sometime too vocal that the private and introvert me find it hard to contemplate that people know tooo much about me but thats what I wanted to change for my own good and to help others who might be going through similar situations.

It been beautiful. Haard but worth it, but let me tell you my friends. Picture abbi baki hai meri dost. The movie is not yet over yet!

One level done, the next is yet to conqure. This recent days been uncomfortable as I've had to deal with a new version of me. Totally transformed and out of my own comfort zone. I'll be getting into a lot of new adventures in this stage and defo some hard and new ones, but I am all for it. I was 22 when I started this blog and now I am 24. I was not consistent but been open about it on insta and now I am excited for the new goals and work I have ahead of me.

I am taking a 4 weeks break from insta this month. As I get more focus on my goals but I am also filled with great gratitude and love as I admire how far I have come. From lost, depressed, confused, hurt, broken girl to a healed, happy, wise, loving and caring women. I feel proud of who I am as a soul and person. I know the fought I have won to reach this far and I hope to help but also to inspire others to not give up their own silent fights.

Thats is for now, till we speak again in our next catch up session.