lNT - journey

Todays, Late Night Thought is about this beautiful, yet mysterious thing called "Journey". It can refer to someones trip during the holidays or a difficult process of a persons personal or spiritual development.

The closet people who will understand you and get to learn your ways and personality are most often, your parents. I would believe, now watching my nieces and nephew grow. The journey to see them reach the age of 22 with the understanding and knowledge to have a opinion, might and will defiantly be of joy, gratefulness, humbling and also a sense of sadness in reference of the time gone. But the 'journey', is what we can take with us.

Today, was an awakening moment in my journey. I had a very deep conversation with my mom, about life, its meaning, our purpose and mostly about the importance of embracing the journey in which life happens. I've been grateful to have been sheltered and given the time and place to evolve into the soul, that i am. But my mother wasn't fortunate. Even before knowing how to fully handle her own self, she was given the responsibility to take care of her husband and mostly of her child. For who, she herself hadn't learn enough to teach.

In the process of putting her family and children before her, made her believe she's not achieve anything. When i look and talk to her, i still see a lost and confuse child who even after 50 years hasn't fully understood what her life is.

But who actually fully knows, as this is why the 'journey', is so mysterious. We are born and yet with no questioning, create a routine in our life to work toward different goals and aspiration. Without any lesson, my mother a young girl who was 16 when she had her first child, learnt to become a mother. My father learned to be the stable figure, who provided for his family and i also without any lessons, learned to be their daughter.

But what we forget are the little moment in between. That actually make us who we are. We forget the journey and how actually everyday, we are growing and evolving. Our bodies are changing but so are our minds and our stories. We sometime live in such a goal driven mind set that the tomorrow always seems better than today. Yet we forget to embrace, the fact how the ups and the down of yesterday adds up to every second of you today. The pages turn but the stories are always part of you.

The past cannot be changed, even if it was to be changed a big part of you, would also have to be taken. Your story and your own journey is the most unique and beautiful thing that anyone can own in this life and it's something that we can actually take with us, when we leave this world. Not the relationship, the house, the money or even our love ones. But the journey we shared with each and every soul and situations in your life that makes it yours.

Regretting the past, wont take us anywhere, changing it, will leave us with missing parts but embracing it will make us enjoy every step of this journey called 'life'.

Like i shared with my mom. We all are lost, we all are unsure but with a little gratefulness, this 'journey' can make us all feel whole from the inside.