I am an octopus?

Today, after months of being on my 'to do' list, I finally got myself to go and register at the GP here. This experience isn't quite something worth mentioning but after a quick escape, of surfing the beauty and skincare counter at boots. I finally took my journey back home. It's just a few minute walk passing by the busy shoppers rushing in and out of Sainsbury, than through the narrow roads, jammed in traffic with cars escaping their 9 to 5 jobs for a free weekend on a friday afternoon, Convinced me to take the other route.

I have two routes to get home. Not different in their duration but in their experience. The first one, follows the busy main road through small shops, around a 'round a about', into the lain of our neighbourhood, whiles the other route gives us, well for me a little heaven of nature and peace, as i walk pass my time capsule. Its a short walk through a small canal that sits just behind our house. Yet it's able to capture the beauty of mother nature and today, it gave me just the right message to start this blog.

My name is Parisha. Parisha Bishwakarma. Curious, yet crazily introverted when it comes to sharing my thoughts, mindset, experiences, name it. Only a few share of people ever get the insight to my mind and those are normally directed towards my family or few of my close friends. Despite that, they still struggle to understand me and my ways.

Born in Singapore, raised in the UK, a British Nationality girl who comes from a Nepali family. My identity is something i've struggled with, feeling the sense of not belonging anywhere. While this sense of not belonging has also been a struggle in my career path.

My curious mind gives me the gift of having knowledges from the way things are made to knowing about different theories of big bang. It travels in different direction every minute, making it double hard to focus on one thing. Which is not the key essential to build a successful career.

You've properly heard the derogatory saying "Jack of all trades, master of none." Im the jack, whose got her hands on so many things, but haven't master any of them. One other saying, that can help you picture me a little better would be "Talent without discipline is like an octopus on roller skates. There's plenty of movement, but you never know if it's going to be forward, backwards, or sideways. I too, have plenty of movement but the direction is pretty much a mystery.

Recapping back to my journey home. As I escaped the hustling sounds of the roads, that somehow manages to silence itself, i breath in the much cleaner air of the canal and make my way through the small path carefully, as i always feel like i might lose balance and fall in to the water. Just a few trees away, something caught my eyes. I noticed it was a moving object and in a split second. I witnessed a squirrel jump from one end of the tree to the other, which was happening just above the canal, it missed the other tree, falling mid air into the water for a few second, i held my breath and watched it catch onto a branch safety, eventually running down the tree into the ground.

I stood still for a few min. Just admiring it's bravery and with it the beauty i had just witnessed. Every step in life is a jump of risk. It either takes us safety through to the other side or down into the waters. But it's a risk worth taking. Here i am taking my jump. Adding to the many things, i've got my hands in. A octopus with roller skates ready to make it go forward, this time.