Typical jan

Like every year's 'JANUARY'. The month always start with the aim of making this'THE YEAR', This year "I'm gonna lose the weight!", "I'll get that job","I'll quit drinking," or "I'll stop procrastinating". Admit it, we've all been there, done that, tried it, and failed it. But the most amazing thing is how we still don't give up trying, on another January.

2019, The last year of this decade and another year with aims and goal all pilling up my diary to make this 'THE YEAR'. Which is bound to happen, when the age is adding up but not the accomplishment, which can make any 22 year old have an early mid life crises. I'm able to buy alcohol in every single country in this world. It's quite scary. Im kinda an adult.

But one things for sure with passing years, the numbers add up but so does the lessons, memories, wisdom and experiences. I look back at 2018 Jan, me and feel amazed at how a year, just a year and things can change so much. Think about it, our earth traveled a full circle, round the sun. which was it's 22nd trip round the sun from the day i was born. Crazy.

Speaking of crazy, our mind can be our best friend or our worst enemy. Fear, insecurity, a pinch of self doubt and we have the recipe for self destruction. A internal battle, which we are all fighting. Even the most confident people in my life. Who i've always looked up to and imagined being just like them, Reviled their other side to me, in 2018. It was like seeing the dark side of the moon. Last year was a roller coster! I always heard people say that, but I lived through my first big roller coster.

I faced the biggest lessons of my life.

Making 2019 have this great possibility of actually being my "THE YEAR". Internal growth may seem like not much of accomplishment to the outer world. But those are the foundation that makes a strong individual. I feel like for the pass 2 or 3 years, I've been doing nothing, but just experiencing things to make myself grow from the inside. Which at the end of last year kinda reached it's peak. I've understood everything i could about myself, the world, people and situations. That i feel charged and ready for the external growth.

22 and confident in my purpose, value, moral and foundation. I'm not doing that bad in this game, am i (self doubt).

No matter how big or small the growth, any growth is a growth and it all starts within ourself. Like for any plant, sprout and seed, water is the key source to help them grow. So let start watering ourself with all the water of self love, kindness, power and failures. As how" Rome wasn't builded in a day." A tall and beautiful tree takes time, care and lot of watering.

2019 is all about that water.